hooooooly shit okay
gonna edit the rest of this shit in later, gotta supper with family
1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie. But there’s so many movies tho…we had a huge collection of Disney tapes when I was a little kid. I remember seeing some of them in the theatre, and others mums taken me to but I don’t remember. It was probably with mum, in the living room of our tiny apartment in the middle of the day.
3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for. I’m not really sure there’s anyone like that? There have been some guys, yeah..but its always ended up not working in some way or another. I’m glad, actually…neither of them would have been right, or necessarily okay with me the way I am.(I mean the one DEFINITELY NOT, wouldn’t have worked out anyway ah yes high school and the other…yeaaaah no that’s a conversation that doesn’t need to be had again)
4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far. I think the biggest thing I regret, at least on a more constant basis, is not being more honest with some people. In regard to my gendery things anyway. There are so many people who I’ve known, and I’d like them to be in my life but I don’t know how to explain. I feel like I shouldn’t have to justify myself but at the same time, these people know me under other circumstances and its awkward. I’ll figure it out eventually..
10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had. Was probably one of them that led mum to kick me out for awhile…happens from time to time,not for awhile though. Funny thing I don’t really remember what they were even about..that’s the thing with fights I guess. Once you’ve been in so many of them, they all kind of run together. Must not have been important then..
13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.
ahahahah hah aha ha. But seariously…not gonna happen. Not really something I understand, so it doesn’t really interest me? I think its fascinating, but that’s really it? If it WAS something i’d be into, it would probably involve a lot of awkward music in the background, and Chuck E Cheese after.
14:Talk about a vacation. We went to Canada a few times when I was little, don’t really remember why though. What I do remember is this girl from Quebec, god was she a jerk. Even at six, I would be the one that manages to get in a fight on vacation, but anyway. She must’ve really wanted the toy I had because I remember she tried taking it from me, and then saying something in French because she thought I could understand but nope… Mum yelled at me for hitting her…violence isn’t the answer, kids.
We also had this huge joint family Disney excursion in 02, with mums best friends and their family. Roadtrip adventures, two days in the car listening to the conversations other families are having because the channels on our radios crossed, Pokemon battles..weird motels in Georgia, good times.
30:Talk about what turns you off. Misogynists, Queerphobes, casual racism, bad teeth- if they’re a bit crooked and stuff that’s cool but if you don’t brush your teeth GET OUT, people messing with my family- I don’t care how amazing you are, there’s a line, you cross that line, there will be blood.
31:Talk about what you think death is like. Honestly, I don’t know. Does anybody though haha. I do have a strong belief in spirits, and that the departed do contact us…its just that not everyone is open to it, or aware of it. At the risk of sounding crazier than I already am, I’ve seen and heard too many things for them not to be.
34:Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured. Was probably either when I had pneumonia, or when Kidneys were hella infected. No stranger to wicked cramping every month but Kidneys were on a whole other level…don’t get sick Stapes, haha.
40:Talk about the end of something in your life. A lot of the violence and other problems I was raised around started to fizzle out with my parents splitting, (not that the arguing has stopped completely, but it’s definitely gotten worlds better) Making the decision to live with my mum has really been the reason for me not having to get the brunt of some of the aggression. Sure there was still plenty of it directed at me, but you can’t very well yell at someone when they aren’t in your immediate vicinity. It’s a good feeling.